You Probably Think That This Song Is About You.

Don't you? Don't you!?!

I hate using this journal specifically to rant. I didn't really make it for that, and when I look back at the sheer number of posts used to flat out bitch, it's really sort of discouraging.

Just the same; SHUT UP.

I am sick of it, damnit. I am over here, doing my best. It may not seem like a lot, but I am trying to work it so everyone's happy. "Oh, Rin! You said you weren't going to try and make everyone happy anymore! What happened to that resolution?" Well you know? When everyone's happy, I'M happy. It makes my life easy.

I spend all day trying to accomodate all the people who need or want my time. It doesn't always work out, and I'm feeling spread a little thin. I'm tired, I'm hot, I am SANS MY BED, and I haven't had a decently long shower in over a week. So you know what? You can SHUT THE FUCK UP. Every single ONE of you who's been in my face.

I am not making light of your problems. I'm not saying you don't have the right to bitch, or to be upset or frustrated. What I am saying is FUCK YOU, okay?!

I'm sick of hearing it. I'm sick of being accused of it. I'm sick of feeling like I'm talking to the pod people who have kidnapped my family and friends and replaced them with whiny emo teenagers. Come OFF it.

Don't tell me I'm rude. Don't tell me I'm no fun. Don't tell me I've replaced you. Don't tell me I didn't make the effort to keep in touch. Don't tell me I'm not trying hard enough. Don't tell me I'm ignoring your needs. Don't tell me I'm being a bitch.

I already know I'm being a bitch.

I just don't care anymore.

I'm so pissed off, and I feel crammed into a corner, and you know what? YOU ruined it. You did. Not me. You, YOU broke us. I want you to know that. You said it and you can never take it back. ....I don't care if you meant it or not.

It doesn't matter. I'm tired, and annoyed, and yes. I know it's difficult to believe, but I am short on sleep and patience. Screw you, alright? You all wanna be like that? Fine. Why don't you give me a ring when you feel like being a human being instead of an angst muffin.

You think you can say whatever you want? It doesn't really work that way, Punkin. Sometimes I wish it did.